Thursday, May 12, 2016

Idle.

For that one moment
After 2 years and a half
We sat there face to face
Wondering what will happen to us
Are we going on too strong
That we tend to hurt each other
With what our heart desires?

Are we going to get back together
and go crazy?
Are we going to tell the world
how we are actually meant for each other?

We sat there for half and hour
In silence
Searching for all the feelings that we used to have
Whenever our eyes met
Wondering if the sparks are still there
Maybe we can start a fire?

Tears rolling down my cheeks
You stare at me blankly with that dark eyes of yours
" What should we do? "
" I don't know "
" Can i continue to love you? "
" No. We can't "
" Am i killing you? "
" Yes. We're killing each other"

.. & you cried.

-- You make me believe the impossible. You make me discover another part in life that i never get to learn. You take me to places that i have never been. All, in your own way. In your very own special way. I thought i've passed all this but i'm not & so do you. 





Thursday, May 5, 2016

On Being A Particular Whore

Elo!

Okay this is so random but i notice that some of my friends and officemates been reminding me on how particular i am on certain stuffs. But i swear, i can't help it. Should i tell how it all started? Haha. I think i got it all from my father. I mean, he's super duper particular about his own stuffs, for example, if you take something from his shelves without telling him, he will immediately knew that someone took it, even if you already put it back at the exact place. How? Just by a slight change or moved objects. See?

Since studying Architecture is like 'Bukan-kerelaan-hati' dan 'Kerana-aku-terpaksa', i become more  and more particular on certain stuffs. Because in Architecture, you can't make mistakes. Everything is money. So i am pretty much focused whenever i do my work and it pretty much effects my entire character too. If i made a small mistakes, i'll get so angry to myself and i'm gonna re-do everything right from the start. Yes. I don't know if i should call this a mild OCD or what. I have to say people can get very annoyed with me at times. 

My office desk.

As you can see, everything is in their place. I will make sure, this is how it look like everytime i come to the office in the morning, and i will also make sure all my stuffs are kept in their places before i end my work for the day. If some of the pens or mouse moved from their places, then i know someone is 'invading' my place and i will go crazy when my stuffs are not there when i need it. So please take caution.  

 My Makeup Stuffs.

Since i'm all busy with so many shits, i don't have time to visit Muji and Daiso for more MakeUp organizers. I am so disturbed when i had to mix my lipsticks with the glosses. I will usually keep them seperated based on brands and types, like the high end ones and drugstore ones, based on their textures either matte or creamy, but most of them are in matte because they're just so damn gorgeous. Haha. Even the foundations, the brushes, my face products are in their own containers or buckets. 

The inside of my everyday handbag
 
This is how it looks like. I swear i didnt take out all the rubbish because i know, all the receipts are well kept and you are not gonna see candy or chocolate wrappers in there. I hate it. Sumpah. Everything is in their place. I love big bags but that doesn't mean i will dump everything inside and i don't like to waste my time to look for things. Keys especially. I prefer to be hassle-free most of the time because to me, i don't have the time to be worrying about my stuffs because i know for sure, that they are there when i need it.
 
Should i do an entry about 'What's in my bag?'
Haha. But definitely no room tour from me.
Bilik anak dara should not be shown to the world. 
 
Everyone know i am a sucker for books. Books are literally my fresh air. No book. I can die. Haha. Being a book lover, you can't escape type of friends who like to borrow your books. Being a particular bitch i am, i have to be honest, i kinda don't like it when people start to borrow my books and i am not gonna be the person who will ask to borrow books from you. Here's a 101.
 
How to borrow Aisya's books.

1. No Dog Ears
I am so pissed when some of my friends mark the pages of MY BOOK by folding the dog ears. Are you crazy? Get a piece of paper or a piece of receipt at least. But don't do that to my book. I'll kill you. Whether accidentally or not.
 
2. Drops of liquid or oil on the pages.
What?! If you wanna read, just read. You can't eat and read at the same time. It's against my rule. You might have to buy me a new book to replace that. I don't care.
 
3. No marks on the hardcover.
It really shows how you keep my book after all this while. No more next time.
 
4. Ternganga
Some books can be very tebal. I don't like my book to have gaps in between. I think you guys understand what i meant. So macam mana nak baca? Bukak sikit je. Faham? 
 
Kalau nak bebel panjang sebenarnya. Haha. I am having some trouble figuring out what is the next topic for my entry. Care for a vote? Please do. 
 
a. What's in my everyday bag?
b. Things i can't leave home without
c. My Bucket List
d. Random Wishlist
e. Drugstore Faves
f. List of books i need to finish before i got married

Much Love, 
AisyaAzman